May Days

May has been one fresh, beautiful, full-of-life month. My absolute favorite event was that I got to deliver a baby on Mother’s Day! It was at sunrise, and the golden sunshine was streaming through the window on the mama’s face as she bravely, beautifully, strongly brought a new life into the world. It overwhelmed me! The dad and I sang happy birthday to him. πŸ™‚ I recently read a book called “Spiritual Midwifery” by Ina May Gaskin and it was so wonderful! It makes me want to be a midwife…which maybe someday I will do. πŸ™‚ Using some of the relaxing and encouraging techniques really worked!

It gave me so much appreciation and awe for how incredible mothers are! picasso_Mother_and_Child_1905_

I delivered another baby too the next weekend! This is by far my favorite thing to do in the practice of medicine.

And then today, after rounding on patients in the hospital, I went for a walk-jog along the Bering Sea beach, and it took my breath away. Today was stunningly gorgeous, after many days of rain (and even snow just last week!), with sun shining on the waves through the clouds, and later through the waves themselves, lighting them up lucid green.

Β  I saw so many birds–seagulls and arctic terns, wild geese flying overhead, birds with long tail feathers that I do not know their name, Ravens…quothing.

The sea has been wild lately and tossed up treasures on the sands. I found infinite amounts of sea glass. I put them in my kangaroo pocket and felt pregnant with treasures from this place of beauty.

Β  I started my walk feeling slight anxious. I don’t know why I have felt some anxiety lately….maybe realizing the fragility of life, so many big changes all coming at the same time–including starting a new life with my soulmate (that, incredibly, does not make me feel anxious at all!), thinking about maybe buying a home in Nome, reading stories about Alaska’s heroes and thinking about the courageous acts of so many people that I have now come to now…and thinking about the circumstances of those heroic acts. I don’t know. But walking the beach in the light, in the fresh salty air, in the wind, in the love, made me feel so calm and rejuvenated. It was the best therapy I have had in a long time. The second best was an amazing yoga class at the rec center that felt so good.
In any case, my soul got to relax today. At the bosom of mama nature. Feeling grateful.

Wild Geese
by Mary Oliver

You do not have to be good.
You do not have to walk on your knees
For a hundred miles through the desert, repenting.
You only have to let the soft animal of your body
love what it loves.
Tell me about your despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.
Meanwhile the world goes on.
Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain
are moving across the landscapes,
over the prairies and the deep trees,
the mountains and the rivers.
Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,
are heading home again.
Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,
the world offers itself to your imagination,
calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting —
over and over announcing your place
in the family of things.

9 thoughts on “May Days

  1. Thank you for the beautiful pictures and thoughts. Life in Alaska is beautiful everyday, come rain or shine! So glad to be here and do enjoy your posts!
    Have a great summer!

    • Thank, Marsha! I completely agree about beautiful Alaska! And I love how much it’s constantly changing, so dramatically. Thank you for the comment! You too! Enjoy this gorgeous Summer!!! πŸ™‚

  2. Hi Shana, I have loved your photographs and descriptions of the area and people. Nome seems like paradise to me, having all of that beautiful open space and the beach on the Bering sea, and those wonderful people to meet. I started thinking about nursing jobs in Nome and came across your blog, thank you for taking the time to do this! If I could give you my email to ask some question I would appreciate it. You are a lovely soul πŸ™‚

    • Thanks, Roxanne! Yeah, I agree–it is a paradise in its own special way! It is wildly beautiful, and open and free. Yes! Feel free to email me, and I will do my best to answer any questions! Take care and hope you can come to Nome! πŸ™‚

    • Hi Roxanne, Thank you so much for the message! I’m sorry, I was starting to get busy around this time in life… my now-husband had just moved to Nome, and we have since gotten married! πŸ˜€ But yes, you should definitely come to Nome. πŸ™‚ And yes, feel free to send me to your email! Awwwww thanks! Peace.
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    • Thanks, Jill!!! Yeah, it is! When do you think you’ll be coming this way again? Would love to take you and Beat out flying! πŸ™‚
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  3. What an amazing experience it must be to help deliver babies! I’ve been with my sister and sister-in-law for births, and it is such a sacred moment. Can’t wait for my own someday!

    Love those pictures of the beach and ALL THAT SEAGLASS!!! Oh my! A lady from my church in Anchorage recently showed some of us how to make really simple but pretty necklaces from seaglass with just a little wire. It’s something I want to experiment more with!

    • Thank you so much! Yes, it is an incredible, sacred, beautiful experience! πŸ™‚ I completely agree~the Bering Sea beach here is just gorgeous, and the sparkling gems of sea glass are so much fun to find. I would love to learn how to make jewelry and other beautiful things from them. I did make a mosaic candle votive that lets the light shine through the glass. πŸ™‚
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